Figuring it Out

From March 3rd, 2022

Thank you all so much for the birthday wishes. Today I turn 36, and given the events of the past couple of years, I would venture to guess that most of us are not where we...expected to be at this point in our lives. I certainly expected to have a lot more of it “figured out” by now...In fact, I’ve spent a lot of my life pretending that I did...with music, career, friendships, etc...really trying to put on that mask of having my stuff together. And there’s nothing wrong with a mask - we all wear one. When we socialize, when we do business, when we’re on stage...and mine has served me well for a long time. I really liked the idea of looking like I had my stuff together. 

But there’s something very liberating in recent years about putting that down for a bit. Really admitting just how much I don’t know. How much I don’t even know I don’t know. About life, about music, business, career...How much I feel like a pretty big mess on a regular basis...and not judging myself for it. Embracing the beauty of the continual learning and growth process that is being human. Recognizing that I have people who love me for me, that God loves me for me...and maybe, just MAYBE learning to love myself. It’s taken me a long time to start to get there, and I’m still working on it. 

So here’s to 36. I’m more thankful for life right now than I’ve ever been. Thank you for sticking with me, for listening to the music - I look forward to making more of that and sharing it with you all. Much love, 

Mark